October 6, 2005

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  • I feel like I have 79804136 things to do, but in reality, I just have a few things to do that will take long amounts of time. And I keep putting it all off.
    
  • I have so much on my mind lately.
    
  • I have decided to change my riding concentration, except I’m not sure what it will be yet - if I will even have one, if I even have to have one. I want to ride three seats. I have a new grown love for Western.
    
  • This means I will most likely not being going to Ireland next year. It is fine with me, I can possibly find somewhere else to go.
    
  • This also means that I might be here at WWU for an extra semester or even five years. I’m not too concerned about just getting out.
    
  • I have thrown the idea of going to graduate school back in the mix. I really want to now. I know exactly where I want to go, and I think it would be awesome. But I need the money..
    
  • My mom said that I can stay in school for as long as I want to, and that she’ll pay for it. But I don’t want to be dependent on her until I’m 26 or 27. I would feel like a FAILURE.
    
  • I feel like I’m giving up on my originial riding discipline. It’s just that I heard we have to jump four feet for proficiencies and I don’t want to do that – I can barely jump two and half feet without shaking with fear. Doesn’t look like I’m too into it, huh?
    
  • I am going to try to focus on the positives – that I love horses. If it so happens that I have to have a concentration, I don’t know what to choose. I want to ride for FUN, not to show… I want to teach, I want to just be around horses. Plain and simple.
    
  • I feel like my life is falling apart right in front of my eyes.
    
  • I need to go talk to people in the EQS department tomorrow.
    
  • By the way, I’m showing in the Fall Family Weekend show in Western. I need to find conservative black pants, a long sleeved collared shirt and someone’s hat to borrow. Bah.
    
  • I love the horse I’m riding right now.
    
  • I cried four times last night for no reason. I just hate not having some kind of “plan”. I think I’m going to put off taking a lot of EQS classes next semester… I know I want to do things with horses, I’m just not sure what yet.
    
  • Revelation for Lil Sis/Big Sis is TONIGHT. I’m sooooo excited!
    
  • I have no energy for anything right now. Homework is killing me… literally.
    
  • I miss my family a lot and I can’t wait to see them in two weekends.
    
  • I think I’m going to look for a job close to home for this summer. Maybe somewhere in Indiana or Illinois. Or Southern Michigan. No more East Coast plans.
    
  • I want to go trail ride. I actually just want to ride today.
    
  • I love riding Western so much more than Hunt Seat.
    
  • That statement scares me because I’ve ridden Hunt Seat for 12 years.
    
  • Yeah.
    
  • I want to go out on a date.
    
  • With a cute boy.
    
  • I’m getting sick. NO FUN. My throat hurts.
    
  • I’ve lost 9 pounds on South Beach. I need to lose like 4 million more. Haha.
    
  • I decoupaged a box last night with pictures of Tina and I. Maybe I’ll take pictures of it and post it.
    
  • I miss my cat. And my dog.
    
  • My trainer is going to be upset with me when she finds out I’m changing my concentration/have become undecided. Oh well.
    
  • I’ll still planning on jumping. Just not higher than two and a half feet.
    
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  Bye, y’all! Be back later… maybe… no inspiration as of late.
  Kate

  
  

  P.S. For Christmas or my birthday, I want strictly ALL horse stuff. Or money. Money is always good. Horse stuff is what I want – spurs, a hat, clothes, pictures, paintings, pillows, blankets, etc.

  
  

  *EDIT*
  Yeah, I’m changing my major to Equine Administration. Yay!

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