August 2, 2005
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And it starts now…
I’m making this public, just because.
Here’s the deal: My parents have proposed that if I lose 40 pounds by the time I come home for Christmas, they will buy me a car. This is going to mean a very strict diet and exercise regimen which will NOT consist of any of the following: “fasting”, binging/purging, exercising every minute of the day I get, and/or becoming obsessive compulsive.
This gives me around four months to lose the weight, which seems feasible to me. My plan is to not eat any chocolate or drink any soda, as well as eating more fruits and vegetables and drinking at least eight glasses of water a day. I plan on exercising every day for at least an hour.
I haven’t eaten breakfast since about eighth grade, but I am going to start.
Breakfast will be some kind of nutritious bar like Special K bars or whatnot, as well as one piece of fruit.
Lunch will be a salad (lettuce, veggies, and a light dressing) or a sandwich (turkey – 2 slices – and mustard on wheat bread).
Dinne will be a little bit bigger meal; I am not sure what yet because I’ll probably always switch it up.
Since I write on this journal pretty much every day, I’m going to start recording what I eat during the day, the exercise I do, and how much weight I have lost. I would tell you all what I weigh now, but that is the scariest thing in the world for me. I have to weigh myself in front of someone before I go back to school, and then when I return from school in December to show how much I weigh – now and then. Thinking about that is making me tear up. I am scared that the person I do it in front of will instantly judge me and change the way they look at me. Yeah.. I’m crying right now.
I will continue to write as normal, but at the very end of all my entries, I will record it. It will just help me a lot. I’m not looking to be anorexic or super-skinny, I just need to lose weight to be healthy.
This was the hardest thing for me to ever write in the world.
Anyone wanna volunteer to let me weigh myself in front of them, without them judging or changing their opinion of me? Someone who I actually know in real life?
-Kate
Comments (9)
I’m trying to get on a diet too… before I start college. It’s so freaken hard though because I’m so bored at work and sometimes I get bored at home too and I just freaken eat like everything in site. I wish i could lose 40 pounds. If you really want to do it then you could do it. I think you should believe in yourself. I know you can do it.
Maybe the courage I’m giving you will rub off on me.
propz gurl…you deserve it.
-cindy
Sending you good thoughts and encouragement!
Over the past year I had gained 20 pounds from stress, eating unhealthy, living alone for my last semester of college, a Krispy Kreme opening up right next to my apartment, etc.
I’ve wanted really badly to lose the 20 pounds so about 6 weeks ago, my friend and I started the South Beach diet. I was hesitant because the first two weeks are no carbs, but after the first two weeks you get to add carbs back. In six weeks, I have lost 17 pounds. I am almost back to my normal weight. It was amazing.
I’m here if you need encouragement- you’re not alone, many of us are struggling to beat the extra weight too!
Liz
kate, when I graduated I gained 25 pounds in only one summer. when I went away to school, I would exercise every morning for 50 minutes and every evening for a half hour. I ate six times a day and drank hella water. I dropped it all by xmas.
I think that a way big misconception is not eating as much. You have to eat more, because your body is burning a million times more from all the exercise. The thing is to watch what you eat, but every friday I let myself have a huge dinner of like, fried crap, or a huge dessert. Hey I was dieting, not trying to become suicidal!
My whole thing was just trying to be healthy again as well and get back to the weight that fit my height, etc. I wasn’t going to go eating salads all the time because when you get down to that weight, you think, okay I did it, now I can eat what I want. By letting myself eat what I want when I craved it, just in way small portions, it was more real to life. No one is gonna cut out all carbs, you know? So eat what you want. Just have it few and far between. By the way, I didn’t cut out anything but pop, but I still had it whenever I really craved it. If you cut out something entirely, and you have a craving, you’re just gonna substitute it by eating way more of something else.
I way know you can find something that is right for you, because you’re smart and a car is freakin sweet haha. It doesn’t have to be torture. After a week, I was like, dear god this is horrible. But after two, I felt so confident and I just felt better in general day to day. I felt healthy, energized…in a really good mood from the moment I woke up. The worst thing you can do is make it feel like bootcamp. Don’t wake up and be like…oh no I have to get on the bike….and be depressed about not eating what you want. Have a bite of what you want and also think…okay well in a few months, I’m gonna be even hotter so hell yeah let’s do this lol
Best of luck to you! You have my encouragement. A word of advice, when you’re at school, try to walk wherever you go. It may take longer than driving or hitching a ride, but it works. I try to make a habit of it, because I’m a big guy to begin with, and I wouldn’t look or feel too good if I didn’t get that exercise…and it may not seem like much, but it does help! I almost always lose weight my first semester coming back from summer…I go from mom’s home cooking back to the Tucker diet (that is, eat less because it sucks). If I drink Soda, even when I’m home, I don’t drink regular anymore. It’s just not worth it! Diet’s ok by me. I also find myself walking everywhere I go, always moving. Unless I have something big to carry home, I always walk to Wal Mart when I’m at school. I walk to the gas station, I walk to the bar, I walk just about everywhere. I’ve even been known to walk to the bank if I have enough time. Don’t have a car, don’t need one. I enjoy it anyway, it helps me clear my head…especially on nights going to the bar, because if you take Nichols around 9:30, there’s NOBODY around. One-way street too, so nobody will drive by and insist you ride with them. Good luck!
Hrm…..what’s your current Ht/Wt?
kate– i’m behind you the whole way. As your sister, I won’t judge you — if you want, you can weigh yourself in front of me. Just not mom or dad, they might criticize.. alot.. But I’m behind you 110%. You may be saying, oh, april doesn’t know what I’m going through. .blah blah.. and you’re right, I don’t know how hard it is. But I’m still going to love you, no matter what happens. You can do it, Kate. And not just for the car. For yourself, and your feelings, and your respect for yourself. Kate, you are a beautiful and wonderful girl either way. And I will love you through all of it. And if you ever get fed up with excercising, just think — I can do this.. just keep on truckin. It’ll be hard — It was hard for me to run every day after school. I dreaded it soo much during the day. But I knew in the end, it would be worth it. I would be one more step closer to my goal. You can do it, I have faith in you even when you or no one else does. I love you Kate!
<3 ur lil sis, April
good for you… i will be here to support you over the net… i’ve actually lost 32 pounds over a year and half and found that doing weight watchers online really works… good luck!
WTG Kate! Goodluck! You can do it! If you need someone I’ll be there for ya!
kate kate kate… hmm so i’ve never really been good with words.. but i just wanted to let you know that i’m behind you more than anybody.. umm yah, i officially suck.. i cant even think of anything good to write… *enter words of encouragement here* lol… i cant put what i want to say into words, so how bout i just ”ditto” everything that april said haha… heyyyy maybe we could do something fun, like talk to each other on our cell phones while we work out at our different colleges!… hahaa okay no anne, bad idea… lol crapppp i fail…. i guess what i’m trying to say is that i’ll always be here if you need somebody to talk to… i will never ever judge you on anything.. i love you! <3