April 30, 2007

• It’s nearly May. Holy crap, when did that happen? I have a thousand and one things going on in my head, none of which I really can formulate into something besides mumbo-jumbo but hopefully whatever I write comes out sounding at least decently coherent. I’m crazy busy, especially with finals this week. I’m also kind of exhausted on the whole, but I guess staying up late really isn’t what I should be doing. But, alas, here I am here. Once again, it’s past midnight and instead of heading to bed, I’m sitting in the comfort of the computer with a cat underfoot.

  It’s kind of hard to explain what I’ve been feeling and thinking lately. Lots of crap, seriously. I am staying positive and knowing that everything will work out exactly how it’s supposed to. But there is really one thing that is really bothering me. Tonight I was talking on the phone with my mom and I told her I would probably end up with a C in Physiology. And she asked me if I had a back up plan in case I don’t get into vet school. She thinks I won’t get into vet school. That hurts my feelings but I didn’t let on because I don’t feel like going down that road with her again. I know I can get into vet school. I’m smart enough and it is what I love, but sometimes it gets hard to believe in yourself when no one else does. Sometimes I feel like I’m wasting my time trying to convince people that this is the road I should be on…

  That’s not the only thing on my mind, but it is kind of weighing me down right now. I should be letting it roll off my shoulders, but right now.. just ugh. This shit is stupid.

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