December 4, 2006
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WTF.
Friday night, I had a date. It went pretty well according to me, and I
thought he felt the same way. He even said, “I like you.” He even
kissed me. He even said he would call me. Well, well. The whole weekend
passed without one word. I found myself rather upset, probably without
much reason. I figured – give him a couple days, maybe he’s busy.
Sunday night I went out to the grocery store at 10:30 p.m. in 17 degree
weather to get some ice cream. I know, I’m crazy. I convinced myself
that ice cream would make it all better. But I proceeded to shut my car
door on my seat belt and trip while walking into the store. It’s not
that unusual for me to trip over my own feet… but at this point, I
was so pissed and angry that everything seemed like a sign of
neverending bad things. I got my ice cream and came home, only to
realize that I forgot to lock the door to my apartment when I left.
Thankfully, I got lucky and no one had come in.I plopped down on the couch, opened my Ben & Jerry’s, and scarfed
it down while watching some National Geographic Channel programs on
gangs in prisons. 2 am rolled around, and I finally hopped into bed for
some much needed rest. I was frustrated still when I woke up. I talked
to Tina a little bit and she made me feel better. It wasn’t my fault,
it was his. I did nothing wrong, and it’s his loss. I went down to my
mailbox about 5 pm, and found a movie from Blockbuster waiting for
me… Bridget Jones’s Diary… sigh. Well, I popped it in and watched
it. I came online to see if maybe he was online. He was online alright,
just hiding as invisible to me pretending like I didn’t know how to
find out he was online – it’s easy, even a monkey can do it. I messaged
him, saying how disappointed I was in him. That I thought he was
different.Whatever, so over that. God.
It pisses me off though. Don’t say “I like you”, “I’ll call you”, or
kiss someone if you really don’t feel that way. And then don’t ignore
them. Tell them what’s up so they can just move right along. Ugh. Guys.
Seriously. This shouldn’t be this big of a deal. But, honestly I don’t
know people around here so I figured that even if we didn’t end up
dating or whatever, I would have a friend. Well, then he cowers in the
corner and can’t even a) return phone calls, or b) talk to me online…
fuck it. Back to the daily grind.Why can’t I meet just one GOOD person!? Fuck.
Comments (4)
what a coward, that kind of stuff is high school behavior. I hope your next date and follow up goes better.
don’t let a moron get you down – to hell with him. It ain’t easy, and life is a pain in the ass, but it beats the alternative
Hey, I’m not having that much luck in the ladies department either, so it goes both ways!
that sucks. i’ve been on both ends of the spectrum. he seems to be cognizant of the fact that he acted dumb, but yeah, i agree: move on. i’m sure you’ll have better luck.