October 30, 2006
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I was going to write about my weekend, but I have lots on my mind. I
don’t feel like writing down the step-by-step version of what happened
the past couple of days. It was fun. Really, that’s all that matters.
On
a whole different note, this whole crying thing really needs to stop. I
just feel so lonely here. That is the bottom line. I mean, I spent time
with people this weekend and I had a really good time. But I don’t hang
out with people much anymore, if at all. Usually only when I’m with my
family (can that count as “hanging out”?) and when Tina was here. I
basically just made myself a sad loner. I like being alone sometimes,
but it’s getting overbearing. I was driving today and thinking about
how New Year’s is in basically two months. I probably will be
completely alone with my cat that day, and I guess I have to accept my
fate sooner or later. Sooner is better than later, so I might as well
accept it now. I’m not too good at making friends – actually, I’m
pretty shitty at it. Yeah, 40k people here and I can’t find one to be
my friend.I feel like crap, I’m tired, and I have to leave here at 8:30 am (earlier than usual – sad). Guess I’m off to bed..
you got your own way of looking at it, baby
i guess that proves that i got mine
seems like our hearts are set on automatic
we say the first thing that comes to mind
it’s just who we are, baby
we’ve come too far to start over now
i know what you’re thinking
i’m not always easy to be around
but i do love you
you keep believing that you love me too
and i know it’s true
this love drives us crazy, but nobody’s walking away
so i guess we’ll do it the hard way
(the song i’m obsessed with right now… “The Hard Way” by Keith Urban)
Comments (5)
Do me a favor. Smile!
8:30 is late! lucky!!
i hope you feel better soon. it’s sunny and warm outside today (relatively speaking).
Hey, sounds like a bad day going on. I remember how much those sucked, I’m sorry chin up. Some day, you could be married, with three kids and you’ll never get to be alone, then you’ll look back on this time with longing.lol Oh wait that’s me… It’s funny how life works, take heart try to get to know yourself and enjoy who you are. Soon others will be sucked into the circle of you. Do I sound like a cheesy horiscope or what.
Thanks for coming around to see me and come back anytime, I’ll do my best to make you giggle…Or say thank GOd that’s not me.
Smile…Ang
so i wasn’t saying it was unsafe for them to do. these are my babies and i want them to be taken care of by the vet that is there. to me right now these three kitties are my kids and i want them to be safe and taken care of right. that’s great that they get experience by doing it but do it with someone elses animal. it’s my choice and no one elses. plus this is a student that would have been doing it without a vet in the room and i that was not okay with me so that’s why i said no.
I feel the same way…I hate feeling this lonely