February 4, 2006

• I will be in Indiana this time tomorrow. I am ready to go home. Most of
  my things are packed, just a few odds and ends here and there that need
  to be thrown together. A part of me is sad, while a part of me is ready
  to just go. It’s time. It’s been time for a while, I was just waiting
  for that door to open and let me walk through. I cried a lot yesterday.
  I haven’t cried yet today. Not many people know, and of the people that
  do know and the ones who knew first… they are the ones who I know
  care about me in some kind of sense. Some people have given me flack
  for leaving mid-semester. We are only three or four weeks in, and I
  needed to go weeks ago. I tried to hold on, I really did. But something
  that is dying or already dead doesn’t make for a very good hold.

  I need to figure out a lot of stuff right now. Working and falling into
  a more sense of structure will be helpful. Make some money, get my feet
  wet, make some hard decisions. Spend time with my family, be there for
  my youngest sister as she goes through the time in her life that might
  just be the hardest just because of her age (and I’ve been there, and
  it sucks!). Finish up some business that needs to be taken care of,
  take on more responsibilites, give the whole school thing a break until
  August.

  I will come back to visit the people here in Missouri from time to
  time, but expect the same out of them if they care enough. Six hours
  may seem like a far way, but it really is nothing if you consider the
  fact that I do not live across the entire country. I hope to get people
  visiting me as much as I plan on visiting them.

  I miss some people already. That’s expected, right?
  I’ll miss my “clique”.
  Stay strong, y’all. Hugs and kisses to the moon and back….
  And Chi O love forever…

  Kate

  • 6:08 pm
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